It will all be worth the wait Saturday - July 26, 2008

Dear All,

This morning I took my grandmother to the hospital to remove stitches from her last operation. The process itself took about half an hour… the waiting was two. bah.

After that, I met up with Munn at pyramid. Went to Popular and MPH to look for a sketchbook for me, but I couldn’t find the type I liked (saw it at Kinokuniya at KLCC, but it cost like RM88 or something like that). We passed a promotion booth for hp’s touchscreen laptops. I fiddled with the middle-range one (RM4999) and it was sooo much fun. I realized that if I had a touchscreen laptop, I wouldn’t need to blow RM600 on a graphic tablet. If I had either the touchscreen or the tablet, I wouldn’t need a sketchbook. =D

Speaking of which, the PC Fair is next weekend (August 2008 1st – 3rd… thanks Jin)

But I don’t know if I can convince daddy to get me a graphic tablet. I ALSO want a gamepad (although this I can buy on my own, I suppose). The gamepad wasn’t initially necessary… until DMC4 came out for the PC. Since that moment, I knew I had to look for a gamepad to take to UK with me. Silly fool that I am, the one time I found a gamepad, I completely forgot I wanted to get one.

We also went shopping at Padini Concept Store and Bonita. I think Munn got one ring.. I got two rings and a pinky-ring. Then went to feed fish T_T then went to watch Hellboy II (again, for me). went anime-shopping and went home. I’m glad she liked my present. =)

…

…I’m kinda sorta depressed right now.

Today was the second time I gave it up.

… could you really have imagined the look on my face when i first saw it…?

Please let it all be worth it…
ThEditor

Financially grounded for a month.. and happy about it. Thursday - July 24, 2008

Dear All,I’m happy, because I’m drastically pleased. =) I spent the last of my cc allowance for 30 days on a bag that I absolutely love. It’s a tokidoki LeSportSac bag. I couldn’t take my eyes or my mind off it… it was love at first sight. I don’t regret buying it even though I know there are other bags and other tokidokis out there… simply because I know this is the only tokidoki bag for me. =) One is enough… and besides, I can’t afford another.

(Although, if I find a Tokidoki outlet in London, I think I’m going to break down and cry. If i have any British readers or traveling readers who know of a Tokidoki outlet anywhere in or nearby London or Paris, please leave a comment, possibly with a map and subway directions… nah, I’m just joking. an address will be fine. I promise not to burn the place down or anything.)

I found a way to post images on my blog, with the handy help of the clipping tool that came with the new mozilla firefox. Sadly, it only allows me to ‘clip’ and paste on my blog photos that are already on the web. I still can’t upload my pix. T_T So, the pics in this blog are the print on my bag and the shape of my bag respectively. I tried looking for a better picture… but I couldn’t find one. The inside of the bag is a really nice bright somewhere-in-between-fluorescent-and-banana yellow. The zipper is rainbow coloured. Mmmmm… In the words of SaladFingers… orgasmic to the touch….

To find out more about Salad Fingers, visit newgrounds.com. I warn you though, it’s not for the faint of heart… although for some reason I just… can’t… stop…. watching… it….

Met up with Marvin yesterday. Had a nice long talk over pizza about sketches, poetry, gays, sex, etc. It was hilarious. Marvieeeee should I reveal who you’d go gay for? =) Your fan club may come knocking on my door. But no, guys and girls, Marvie’s not gay. =)

We walked and talked…but didn’t have time for chocz!!! so sad. =( Maybe next time though. It was fun =)

Love-in-a-bag,
ThEditor.

clipped from www.tokidoki-blog.com

A new me, from tip to toe =D Tuesday - July 22, 2008

Dear all,

Sorry, but this post is going to be more than a bit vain =) Luckily (or unluckily) my photo-hosting sites still aren’t working. Is anyone else having this problem? T_T

I LOOOOVE the new stomach that’s attached to my new @$$ that’s attached to those yummy legs.

Okay, I know that’s TOTALLY vain. But let me tell you now that it’s not model material (of course XD) but the improvements are just so that it’s noticeable that my workouts and changed eating habits are paying off. =) AND I woke up with no blackheads on my nose today! and no zits!! and I don’t have a spare tyre when I sit down anymore!! Hooray!!!

I’ve only decided to post this because I’m proud of myself and I figure if I ever get lazy or chubby(-er than I’d like to be) in future, this post is going to be inspiration =)

I want to go to the beach, just to see if me-in-a-bikini actually compliments the shoreline this time instead of making it look like I’m some cancerous growth in a rubber band.

WOOOOHOOOO

sorry la. A bit high. Again.

I blame the happy-turtle shirt. =)

I never want to take it off.

<3

So I’m a girl,
ThEditor.

Broken realization Tuesday - July 22, 2008

Everytime you ask me why I’m crying… I can’t find the courage in me to tell you it’s because even though i know one day i’ll have to let you go, i can’t help but wonder if there’s another way around this, because you’re too precious for me to lose.. and i’d give anything to hear you say the same for me.

Stupid image hosting sites Monday - July 21, 2008

Dear All,

I haven’t been blogging because, well… i can’t seem to upload photos to ANY of my image-hosting sites, including my two favourites, Photobucket and Flickr. I just can’t imagine why. I’ve even shut off all my firewalls and antiviruses and tried that, but it doesn’t work. Everytime I want to blog and put images up, I can’t, and I get so pissed because I can’t, and then lose all my mood for blogging. I mean, it’s so boring to just say, “I got my hair done today” or ” I bought two sweeeeet tees that make me feel happy when I wear them”. I can’t stand it T_T Same problem with the desktop. But until I figure out what’s wrong, I’ll just have to make do…

In the meantime, went to pyramid today. Wore my contacts out =D I finally got to use those pair of Playboy sunspecs I bought like years ago! MWahaha. XD I managed to control my spending today though. Just three small keychain thingies, one super sweet shirt (I call it my happy-turtle-shirt) and one black tube top. and, then we had some ice cream and kim gary’s. Didn’t watch a movie =( I wanted so badly to see The Dark Knight (Batman was my very first superhero-crush XD) but couldn’t be helped… *sigh*… maybe this weekend we can all go out and watch =D

Oh yeah… and two days ago, went to Pavillion with mommy where I got a cap, a pair of sneakers, and a Juicy bag (I’ve always wanted a Juicy bag XD).

….

….Omigawd. Like, I really don’t feel interested in writing at all without my photos to inspire me T.T

Bahhhhh.

Other than that, I’m happy, though =)

MyFirstKiss T_T,
ThEditor.

Sleep deprived. Saturday - July 19, 2008

Went to an office dinner with mom. Stupid image hosting sites aren’t working. took me two hours to upload this photo. It’s 3AM. I’m depressed. I’m going to sleepnow.

ThEditor.

Of all things red and gold Friday - July 18, 2008

Dear you,

I’m feeling soooo emo again. And I don’t have any clue why. I was just fine yesterday… then, this morning I woke up with this feeling… a feeling I haven’t woken up with in one and a half years.. possibly more…

… this strong feeling that… I don’t want to lose you.

… that I would do almost anything to see you smile because of me.
… that I would cry if I ever hurt you today.
… that I would never be content letting you go without a fight.
… that I knew I would laugh if you said something stupid.
… that I would be so happy if you could tell me you were proud of what I’d done and who I’d become.
… that even if people thought I had the froggiest voice in the world, I’d sing to let the world know I loved you.
… that I would write a song about you today.
… that I’m the luckiest girl in the world this morning.
… that I’d do an extra 10 laps today to bring me just a tiny little bit closer to looking better because of you.
… that I would spend most of my day thinking about you.
… that I would be wondering if you were thinking about me.
… that I would save on my spending today, because I know you wouldn’t like it.
… that I would see memories of you everywhere I went today.
… that the things other people say won’t change the way I feel, because the way I feel is just not that fickle.

it’s so strange… when I have convinced myself that I am a rock, that I am only me, that I am in charge of my own destiny… you come along and prove me so, so, wrong.

… only you can warp time for me, and squeeze infinity into a heartbeat.

Only you make me wish I was the girl I dreamed you deserve. Only you make me want to change for the better. I’m never satisfied with myself, but only you can make me put in the effort to change. Only you can do it… and you do it so well.

There’s so much I want to say to you.. so much I want to do with you… so much I want to share with you… that I can’t believe that I was meant to be without you in the first place. It’s been so many years and you’ve smitten me just like it was the very first day I discovered I loved you.

I want to say those three words I say to you in my heart so very often… even though it doesn’t feel like enough, it’s all I have. If I could invent a word, a sacred word, to use to mean that I love you a thousand times more than love could ever dream of being expressed, of being painted, of being whispered, of being written, of being sung, of being praised, of being worshiped… or even of being loved…

If I could summon the courage and the wit and the audacity in me to create one such word, I would do it, for you.

…Gosh.. I wish it was Valentine’s Day. Or our anniversary. Or something. I’m just so full of this stuff right now.

Could you like, forget all about this post, so that in case we get together in the years to come, I can throw it all back at you?… You make me such a different person…

You can be the gold, and I will be the red… just like old days.
ThEditor.

Bag-Window-Shopping Thursday - July 17, 2008

The sweetest bag I’ve seen since the last bag I bought. =)

clipped from www.bagsdirect.com